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Ola Skowrońska

HEDA

About the project

The starting point of Heda was born somewhere between the thousands of text messages which I have exchanged over the years with one of my closest friends, an anthropology graduate born in Chechnya and now living in Moscow. The original idea – back in 2019 – was to combine our respective anthropological and artistic research practices into a documentary project about the oppression faced by women in the restrictive culture of post-war Chechnya. This plan was quickly hindered first by the pandemic, and later the Russian invasion of Ukraine. It became impossible for us to meet in person: I couldn’t enter Russia, and she couldn’t leave.

Amidst these challenges, a new concept emerged – a narrative which would incorporate both a broader picture of the cultural identity of Chechen women, and the connection which the two of us personally share. In the winter of 2023, I started travelling around Europe photographing young Chechen women who share the same name as my friend – Heda. I set out to create a story which is concerned with not just the the contemporary issues of migration, but most of all the individual character of each of its heroines. The main subject of the series is the in-between state which daughters of refugees find themselves in: estranged from the traditional culture of their origin due to misogyny, while simultaneously not fully accepted in the country in which they now live due to xenophobia.

This project tells the stories of five Hedas – the four I met in person, and the one still 1400 kilometers away.Together, they create a multifaceted tale of migration, war, trauma, belonging and community.

Chapter 1

Brno

Heda, born 1996. Lives in the Czech Republic. Unmarried.

Chapter 2

Warsaw

Heda, born in 1999. Lives in Warsaw. Unmarried. Studies Arabic studies.

Chapter 3

Bingen (am Rhein)

Heda, born 1999. Lives in Bingen am Rhein. Married with 2 kids. Graduated with a Bachelors of Education degree in English and biology.

Chapter 4

Berlin

Heda, born in 1994. Lives in Berlin. Unmarried. Studies fashion design.

Chapter 5

Moscow

The 5th chapter of the project is devoted to my friend in Moscow, from whom the project originates, and consists entirely of images from our archive of 6 years of text messages, as well as snippets of conversations. Each image is accompanied by the date of its creation. As the chapter both thematically and visually stands out from the rest of the project, it is also presented in a different form.

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2019
12.05.2019, 20:46
17.11.2019, 21:48
11.12.2019, 13:18
30.12.2019, 01:33
2020
27.05.2020, 21:27
13.06.2020, 16:20
Ola
And how do you think she would react? If you did cross the line, if you ran away or did something like that.
Heda
I feel like she would never disown me, that's for sure. She would never do that. She would always take me back and she would not go no-contact with me. I kind of wish it would go this way, but I know that if I did cross the line it would cause her such pain. That would be, you know, my punishment. Not her not talking to me, or like yelling or anything of sorts. Yeah, but at the same time, it does bring me some peace, knowing that she wouldn't leave me. She wouldn't disown me or reject me.
17.06.2020, 04:12
20.07.2020, 14:31
01.08.2020, 15:06
02.08.2020, 22:54
11.08.2020, 14:16
11.08.2020, 20:17
Ola
Would the problems come from other members of your family, rather than your mother?
Heda
Yeah, because I mean, she's a woman. She's supposedly the only one who's responsible for her kids. She would take the heat. It's very sad thinking about since I don't even have my sister now, so I'm an only child. It's a burden on me more.
Ola
I assume it's a thing about the Chechen honor you always talk about. How she would take this blame - that the mark would be on her honor, not on yours. You would be out of the community and she would be in it.
28.08.2020, 20:21
01.09.2020, 23:03
03.09.2020, 20:10
16.11.2020, 21:57
2021
26.01.2021, 00:11
22.02.2021, 13:07
Heda
Lately I can't go anywhere in my district without thinking of Tata. Right now I'm better, but sometimes I used to have almost panic attacks because I would just go to the store. Sometimes I just want to leave to, you know, make new memories, start everything anew.
Ola
I feel like you could really use that. Especially to meet new people.
Heda
But the thing is, it just doesn't work with the meeting new people for some reason. I even started new job with young people and nothing.
Ola
Well, you did meet someone. Some weird guys who gave you bad advice.
Heda
Yeah, but we're not friends.
06.06.2021, 14:20
16.06.2021, 14:49
21.07.2021, 13:23
14.10.2021, 11:36
18.10.2021, 06:11
23.11.2021, 19:52
Heda
One time I was just telling Sasha about this dissociation thing and suddenly he just calmly goes. "Oh, so that's why you kind of leave reality when we talk". I was like, "What?". He just said "Well, yeah, you often have this face when you're just not listening to me" and I'm like, "No one told me this ever".
Ola
Well, I just assume you're like, not interested in what I'm saying. A lot of people do that. Unfortunately for me.
Heda
[laughs]
Ola
It's like in "Fleabag". When the priest saw her talking to the camera.
2022
20.03.2022, 11:49
20.03.2022, 20:35
28.03.2022, 03:49
22.06.2022, 01:43
22.06.2022, 12:00
14.05.2022, 12:27
07.08.2022, 14:14
Heda
You remember this girl from my school who followed you on instagram?
Ola
Yeah, there was someone like that.
Heda
I was friends at school with her and her boyfriend, Timur, and I remember Amina telling me that one time she and Timur were talking about the future and Amina said that, well, Heda probably is gonna go to university to do this and that. And she told me that Timur was shocked that I'm going to go to university, because he basically thought that because I'm Chechen, I will just get married and start a family. So, even though he knew me rather well, just the idea of me going to university after school, it was so weird for him just because I'm Chechen. It's also annoying because if I ever told my family that I don't want to go to university, they would be so pissed. All of them would be like, are you fucking insane?
20.09.2022, 12:00
08.12.2022, 21:36
2023
24.06.2023, 17:04
03.07.2023, 08:47
2024
02.02.2024, 14:41
Ola
I remember very vividly that for a long time you didn't want to tell any of your friends that your sister was sick. I remember that I found out that she died because a day before that you said that if your sister dies you won't be able to kill yourself, because your mom will have like, no children. Then a day later you just texted me like, "well, I guess can't kill myself anymore."
Heda
It was literally the next day. [laughs]
Ola
Yeah. I was like, what the fuck?